Betrayal started with Friendship

I had this feeling for some time already. You've been a decent friend with me. However your actions and your doings had really broke my limitations now. I never expect you to do this behind my back. Why're you doing this to me? I know I've been a passive person, however, does that mean you've the right to snatch it from my back? Yeah, in term of the law of nature, you've the right. However, it's forbidden when it comes to the word- Friendship. Most suffering is only apparent. And please dont give me reason that you're bored, I'm not taking that as a reason, you SON OF A BITCH!!! Your avoids too been annoying me, I mean cant you direct to my question? Why do you need to beat around the bush? Huh, your so-called friend doesnt have his/her name of his/her own? But frankly, I already know the answer for it. Straight to the point is always the best answer for me and I dont like thief as well as poser. You're PROBABLY THE SICKEST JERK I EVER MET, YOU SCUMBAG!!!



We fancy it is torture but what do the rest know when you're in the state of emotional chaos? All the while the mask I'm wearing. Strange that these words had, from time after time, been existing in some obscure cell at the back if my brain- forgotten but all the while existing.

Regards,
When Hell BREAKS Loose

P/S: I wish you fail all your subjects for STPM!

Never let the things you want, make you forget the things that you already have

Hey, you're going to leave soon-eh? I never expect it to be that early. There's one thing which I dont really understand. Among all of your friends, why would choose me to tell? In my mind, I dont recall anything special I did for you. We're friends all along. Well, at the most, I only SMS and phone call you. Are you sure of your departure? Is leaving the best way to settle everything? Try asking yourself. All of a sudden, I felt like there're a lot of things to tell you and those are only for your ears. Please dont ask me what's my feeling now. Why do people always regret in the end for not appreciating what they've now? I only came to realize this important message a few days ago after you told me about your departure. Anyway, I dont know what can I do for you. For now, I only want to live in a part of your memory. I dont mind my existence is kept in a small corner.


I made a new poem, I cant seem to give a suitable title to it. Anyway, you people enjoy it. Feel free to leave any comment.


Giving someone all your love is never an assurance
That they'll love you back.

Some people are just not meant to be in your life,
No matter how much you want them to be.

You hug them goodbye like it's nothing..
While all you want to do is hold on forever..

I used to smile when I told people that you were mine..

BUT now,

I can't even smile and say your name at the same time...

As much as I love you,
I have to say goodbye..

Because I know you would be happier if I let you go..

I`m sorry if I made you cry,
I`m sorry if tears fell from your eyes..

But remember,
For every tear that fell from your eyes,
Too fell from mine..

Missing you isn't the hardest part,
Knowing I once had you,
Is what breaks my heart..

I'll never forget the times we once shared,
And I`ll always remember how much you once cared..

Now it's over,
It's time to move on..

It's never easy to see you turning back..
But, I have to take the pain..

And cry all the way home..
Because I know it will never be the same..

I know when you leave,
Distance will keep us apart....

But distance,
No matter how far,

Can't change this feelings in my heart..

Just turn your head when you see me,
I will understand..

One day,

I will be able to look you in the eye..
Without feeling the pain..

I've caused you..

I hope in time,

You will be happy as you call my name,

Once again.......

Happiness is too far for us now...

But even it it's near,
I know it will be hard for us to get there...




Ragards,
When Hell BREAKS Loose

Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe

If you have a closer look across the sea, there's a boundary line that cuts between the sky and the sea itself. It's insignificant and people dont really take notice of it. What if I say it's a divider between life and death where you're now standing still on that boundary line. Any false move could possibly end your life. That's when people will take complete precautions on their any actions. MEN fear death, as children fear to go in the dark and as that natural fear in children is increased with tales, so is the other. Certainly, the contemplation of death, as the wages of sin, and passage to another world, is religious but the fear of it, as a tribute due to unto nature, is weak. I do not believe in belief. However I've faith with me. Faith, in my mind, is like a mental starch, which ought to be applied as sparingly as possible. I've absolute faith on everything that's now pulling me alive.

In the memories of:
My grandma (1912 - 2008, aged 96)
My aunty
Chan Woei Lih (1989 - 2002, aged 12)
Lau Chun Fai (1989 - 2008, aged 19)

P/S: All of you will always be in my mind forever!



Regards,
When Hell BREAKS Loose

The truest test of Strength, is when we cannot. And through Perseverence, we may attain Greatness

Apparently, things have heated up and I say let's ROCK ON! Here, I'm saying the STPM exam. I'm more concerned of it in fact rather than the trial. Though trial is a forecast of the real thing, they say and it comes before the STPM itself, I dont really feel the pressure of it. Seeing my classmates being motivated to study, for some reason, I really like this kind of feeling. To be frank, it actually triggers my instinct to study again. Thanks a lot, guys. It's just the matter of time now to decide what's the outcome would be.

Regards,
When Hell BREAKS Loose

Fiction

Who am I really? No one quite knows who or what they're. The memories you've and the role you're assigned are burdens which you've to carry. It doesnt matter they were real or not, that's never the point. There's no such thing in the world is absolute reality, most of what they called real is actually fiction. What you think you see is only as real as your brain tells you it is. Then what am I suppose to believe in? What am I going to leave behind when you're through? We can tell other people about having faith. What we have faith in, what we found important to fight for, it's not whether you're right or wrong but how much faith you're willing to have, that decides the future. Listen, dont be obsess of the words so much, find the meaning behind the words and decide. You can find your own identity and your own future. And whatever you choose will be you. I know you didnt have much in term of choices this time. But everything you felt, fought about during this mission is yours and what you decided is your choice. Yeah, I'm saying a start over, new memories, choose your own legacy, is for you to decide, it's up to you.

I love, therefore I'm a lover
I kill, therefore I'm a killer
What shall I be then when I love to kill?



Regards,
When Hell BREAKS Loose