Reality of Dreams

Reality of Dreams

Locked inside my prison cell,
This world I live in known as Hell.
I kneel each day with hopes of release
But, find instead that this will never cease.

My body is broken from this abuse
Not able to lift my head from this noose
The blood of my life lies pooled before me
The collective pain of the lashings I took calmly

The wounds from my attacker still fresh on my skin
From those bloody ravines flows my soul from within
My wrists have been taken and in one small action
My mind goes draining, paling my satisfaction.

The darkest of hours as I lay there alone
In my solitary cell, where the cold seeps to the bone
You cannot hear the silence of my deafening scream
As it rings through my head, the reality of my dream



Regards,
When Hell BREAKS Loose

The Outcast

The Outcast

Like all the others, you put me out and turned your back
Shunned by the crowds, just for the normality I may lack
A pity to see someone denied for an obsession
Just because you can't understand what's in my possession
The anger I brood over from each little remark
Sends me with desperation to my asylum in the dark
You cannot see the pain so plainly clear and evident
Or the fear of being alone, my friends, away they went
So being true and not hiding behind a different mask
Taints a person's security, for the "evil" of his task?
Well, I guess being alone in this world isn't half bad
Because living a lie would probably drive me mad
It's surprising to see that as I walk all alone
Just for being me, all the way to the bone
This life is not for me, if I could die right now
These would be the words I would leave as my vow,
" If you want to be normal, just fade in with the rest,
But to be an outcast for being yourself is the ultimate test."



Regards,
When Hell BREAKS Loose

Things that shouldnt exist

My Family "6AS1"

It has been almost a year since I have been part of 6AS1 . It actually is my second school, and will be, my last. When I first started in this school, I never saw myself being part of the community… Rather, Against It. Since to me, anything and everything in the class has no depth. Nothing more, nothing less. Never have I imagined that through this environment I’d find acquaintances… What more those that I am very sure have lead/would lead into FRIENDSHIP.

To my family; 6AS1, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING !!! Words will NEVER Be Enough...

Jern Foong and Jun Yan (Gods who sit on altar)

You two are probably my closest friends I had. And you two had taught me a lot of what it meant to be friends. And I was very grateful of it.

@Jern Foong, you possessed hidden talents in you which everyone couldnt possible have. You should learn to expand and for the betterment of everyone. It makes perfect sense since you're a karma believer, everyone cant deny that.

@JunYan, you showed me that you got strong desire. To be frank, you're probably the most competitive person if you really outdo yourself. And you're a person who truly values what's friendship, that's the sweetest part of you. Dont drink so many alcohol. ALCOHOL KILLS BRAIN CELLS!

Thank you two for the time, honesty, trust and endless laughter all throughout.
May you find true happiness. Everything else follows. You deserve nothing less of the best life has to offer. God Bless You and those you hold dear to your heart.

Joe (Jogger)

At the very first glance, you're an innocent person with big round eyes and you're a banana. I know the fact you’ve been going through… But as long as your conscience is clear, there’s nothing you should worry about. There are only few who know what you’ve been going through and for all that you’ve surpassed and will face and end triumphantly, I salute you! As a person, with such a good and not-so-innocent-anymore Heart…To you Joe , STAY STRONG and FOCUSED. Everything Else Follows. God Bless You and your family.

Ah Kee (President of Farenheigh club)

Despite of your physical size, I rather amazed to see how your achievement you're currently having. You've a big heart and a lovely heart-shape head. Deep down under me, you're a natural borned politician and not a sleeping figure if you worked hard. Your loud voice tends to resonate my ears and it's a pain for me. One thing that separate you and me, would be your characteristic, people simply just love you. I envy that a lot. Keep your charisma and dont move any false step if you really into politician.

Wei Lam (Sleepyhead)

At the very beginning of knowing you, you're nothing special. You're just too common, in actual fact, your attitude is a hell foundation where my hatred for you from. Whether intentionally or not, judging by your walking, you're actually doing a cat walk. Deep down in you, you're a woman. Look, I'm not looking down on transvestite, it just keeps my rage unkept. I see you're now much more hardworking now, keep that and work towards STPM. Though sincerely, I dont know how long your hardworking spirit will acually last. All the best in the coming future.

Yi-Tsiang & Phui Yoke (3rd geniuses)

I believe I've told you two before what's it being a 3rd genius is, that's being extremely hardworking. Perhaps it's the hardworking genes that buried into you two that eventually bring you two together, simply just fate. You two caught my intention. Two of the most silent but deadly competitors in the class who always in the top 5 positions. Keep that well-maintain, have faith with each others.

@Yi-Tsiang, Just a word of advice, dont too catch up in relationship, just try endure for these coming months and you're free to indulge into your pool of love.

@Phui Yoke, Dont always look down on yourself, try not to let your stress control over you.

You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end

Most importantly, dont ever be someone like me who always slack.

Ee Loe (Pure-hearted)

It's a surprise to see people who manage to keep their pure heart to survive in this era. I must say, I'm impress. Just like your fairness of your skin, your heart is just like it. Overcome your sleepiness, make yourself looking more bright when you got your result. Trust me, you got potential which you havent realise. Study hard!

Harn Wei, Yun Chian and Chiao Yuet (Trickters that OWNNED)

You girls always give me a headache and playing trick on us frequently, especially, Yun Chian, the one who always poke me on my waist. At the very first of knowing you three, I dont see the reason why you girls like to play a fool on people. As time goes on, I got used to it and I'm immuned to it.

@Harn Wei, Although with your sporting attitude, you've the same level of EQ like Phui Yoke. Remember this, you always have friends around you. Get over it and stand strong.

@Yun Chian, You're a strong character. Never seen that before in my life. Perhaps the sorrows you underwent, that moulded your personality. You're the rightful owner of having the 1st place in our class.

@Chiao Yuet, Snap out of the imagination and face the reality! Dont blur all the time.

Cai Yi, Yeon and Lai Sim (3 Goddesses)

They came in 3 and 3 of them are special beings, that's you three, alright. Cai Yi has amazing "fan" ability, Yeon had a hair ball and Lai Sim is a bread maniac.

@Cai Yi, Our friendship wasnt that close until recent. You changed a lot and what's the thing that surprise me, is your bottom of your heart. And I'm fond of that. You got the desire to move forward. Your laziness and your stubborness are your only downfall. You got friends and you dont stand alone. Get their help, they can help you achieve a lot. Please dont feel any embarassment.

@Yeon, You like bakery, you should make some for Lai Sim. You're constantly sticking your face to the chemistry, guess that's the sign of a future chemical engineer. You and I share the same ambition. I believe you're going to be a very successful one.

@Lai Sim, When we first met over at the same driving institute, you said, "We've met before this", the same thing I said that to you. And when I had the psychology test about the before life, the same thing it stated. You're also a person with a pure heart. Stay the way you're. And I hope your allergy will be cured as you like cheese a lot.

Yell Jing (The silencer)

Like everyday I fetch you to school and I havent get to talk to you. I think our longest conversation is only 3 sentences. I got no comment for you. Do you very best for these few months.

Su Ying

I just know you can speak hakka until recent. I'm not really good at it and I wish to learn more from you. You're also a person who's very hardworking. Your hardworking wouldnt fail you, it'll pay off during your exam. Trust me.

Swee Lee, Siou Yee and Min Ting (Triplets)

You girls are people who dont talk to others unless people come to you.

@Swee Lee, being the smartest among you three, has always been a mentor.

@Siou Yee, your research would fail you if you truly understand it. Try some vitamin B6 for a better memory

@Min Ting, I like your food!!! Yum yum. And I hope your foot will recover soon.

This part is dedicated to only my fellow friends in 6AS1.

He who make a beast out of him, will get rid the pain of a man

Just like the picture of a person holding a gun and a flower on another hand. I chose to be a beast.

TO ALL OF YOU WHOM I HAVE MADE FUN OF, STEPPED ON, DEGRADED AND ALL THAT… GUESS WHAT?

Im not SORRY. BECAUSE YOU DESERVED IT.

I never started anything. but I sure ended It, I'm ending our friendship. 6AS1 ONLY CONSISTS OF 19 PEOPLE.

You all are free to say what you wanna say after this… It still boils down to THE FACT THAT MY MERE EXISTENCE IS AN INSULT TO YOUR PATHETIC LIVES. Hahaha!

The one true infamous player that most of you love to hate…

Forget me


Regards,
When Hell BREAKS Loose