Monday, July 5, 2010

I'm... incapable of doing anything

There is always a moment where you pause, reflect, and wonder where exactly your life is heading.

Is it down the street, past your neighbourhood, out of your town, far away from home and the things you are used to? Is it that spot right where your feet are grounded, around places and people you've known longer than you've really known yourself? Sometimes, you can feel like just getting on your bike and pedaling hard until your legs start to burn and you feel like you can't push yourself to go an inch further. Sometimes you don't even know where you're going, but you know deep inside that you just have to go. There are times when we just need to know how far we can really get without ever turning back.

I started pedaling without a goal... without even knowing the meaning behind my actions.
I was afraid this whole time.
I was afraid of not knowing the future.
I was afraid of not knowing what I wanted to do.
I was afraid of myself for now knowing what to do.
And I was afraid of the days that were nevertheless flying by mercilessly.

Always... I'd always thought...
"How far can I go without looking back?"
That was the reason I started riding.

I finally understood the meaning.
I probably wanted to distance myself from everyone, so I could understand how important they were.
How precious they were...

What was the end of the land like?
There was nothing there.
But...
It was bright.
The sky was so beautiful.
It made me wanting to see you again.
That's why I decided to come back.
I'm in love with her.

And so...
We all start to revolve again.
We start to revolve again...

Regards,
SY Leong

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