Its beautiful when two strangers become best friends, but sad when two best friends become strangers...

They all said "Hallo" and felt awkward and unhappy suddenly, because it was sort of a goodbye they were saying, and they didn't want to think about it. So they stood around and waited for someone else to speak, and they nudged each other, and said "Go on"...

It's astonishing to me how two people who once knew each another so intimately can suddenly become like strangers. In fact, that was probably one of the most unnerving things about them. I watched as they grew more and more distant and soon it was like they were roommates. It reached a point where they were no longer talking anymore...just existing. It was then that I realized they were close to the end of their friendship. And I couldn't do a single thing about it.

This is tough to swallow, but it's crazy to see them act like strangers when you've watched them together for almost 2 years. Sometimes I look at pictures of them and can hardly believe they were ever even together. Things are so different now and they're so far removed from one another. In some ways it feels like they were never friends but in other ways it feels strange that they're not. Does that even make any sense? I still pinch myself sometimes to see if this is all a joke. And everytime I have a dream about them along with me are together. Maybe my subconcious hasn't quite accepted it all yet.

There have been times where I want to shake both of them and shout, "You were once good friends! You once gave a damn about one another! Don't you have any of those feelings left anymore?" But then I remember that they were dysfunctional together and that watching two people lose touch with one another is not a life I want to see among my realm of close friends. I want to see them happy. And if that's not back to how it was, then I guess I'll have to learn to deal.

Were things strange for you when your friends began acting like strangers? Did something indecent happened between them? Or maybe they had a smooth transition and make an effort to become how they were before they met each other. Either way, they're not together as they once were and that's just weird.

And with this, I dedicate it to whomever reading this...


All I want in this life is to matter to somebody like you matter to me and to change somebody's life like you have changed mine. I want to be the kind of person that somebody can count on, the kind that somebody always knows will know just what to say. I want to be as special to somebody - someday - as you have been to me each and every day

Yours faithfully,
An Unhappy Man

Regrets

Man's feelings are always purest and most glowing in the hour of meeting and of farewell. Goodbyes are always sad, and perhaps that is why Russians hate using the word goodbye as a parting word, instead they just say “see you again”. Sad goodbye quotes are based on occasions which are like the farewell party at school, the parting from childhood place and people who have been with you all the past years. True goodbyes are the ones never said or explained.

My Lovely Daughter

And there is my lovely daughter. She's wearing the earrings that Eugene and I bought for her the other day in Malacca. Lovely, yes? And I do not take NO as an answer, naturally. Hah, your dad does have good eyes of choosing those for you, looks perfect on her (narcissism attacks!!!)... Oh, did I mentioned that doggie that she's caressing over her left cheek, that was another present that Tan, Charlotte, and I got for her in Jogja.

Jogja

Dont really know what to say about this place but let the picture does the talking...

I wonder when will the cold war end...

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Perhaps it's true for you to solely live for your ownselves, if these words coming from a 3-years-old, I'll just give a smile and a few pats on one's head. However, if you look at another way round, it's just another excuse for you to run away from responsibilities. No one like to bear responsibilities, it's a fact that none of us can deny. Yet, let me remind you that responsibilities of parents which are the things that brought you to here where you are now. Let's look at them in another few years ahead, they are aging, their movements aren't as agile as they used to be, the risk of exposing to diseases increases with each passing days, their daily expenses are heavily depending on their own personal savings and EPF, most importantly, their days are getting shorter and shorter. Who is going to take good care of them? Like you said, if you are to live for only for yourselves, that will only make you a selfish and irresponsible person.

You're old enough to understand this, I think...

Genjo Sanzo

Murder doesn't necessarily mean evil, right? The world being what it is, a lot of people out there deserve to die, don't they? But those who do take it upon themselves to kill others have to be prepared to have others try to kill them as well. And that's what they call the law of Karma, my friends. That's why good or bad, the only ones who are going to be left standing are the ones with the strongest wills to survive.