My name is Leong, and if you know nothing else about me, you probably know that I like to argue. Much of that comes out in the way I write. I think deeply on a range of issues, and I rarely ever hesitate to articulate my point of view. If you know me a little, you already know that, but then, what I've written here is not really for you all.
If you know me a bit better you'll know that I'm generous to a fault, that I'm quick to sympathise even with people I don't like, and that I'm weird. You might also know that I've been trying to balance maturity with an equal amount of childish idealism, and that I'm impulsive. What's written here is most likely not meant for you all either.
Those few of you who know me well, who I've talked to at length and whose company I continue to crave - you might know that I'm a dreamer of impossible dreams and that I would always rather hurt myself following my heart then save myself by following my head. Even you, who I love best, likely do not know what it is you mean to me; how completely and totally you own my heart and my soul. What I've written is for you all.
It is thanks to you all that I have not vanished yet, back into the impenetrable well of anonymity from whence I came. You all turned what was originally a distraction from the chaos that my foolishness had turned my life into into something a lot more meaningful. You all have given me courage when I was hurt in body and mind, ensured that I've never had the time to brood. It is thanks to you all that I continue to dream impossible dreams. And yet...
And yet, life is unpredictable at the best of times. It twists and turns in a million different ways, beyond the ability of any individual to control, direct or fashion. I don't know you all yet as well as I would like, and you don't know me as well either. Yet with time that can change.
I mean to make it so. That is my dream...
However, I'm going to leave you guys now, for good. Don't get it wrong, there's nothing I'm against you all. You all are bunch of nice person, probably one of the nice-st. I just don't see fit with you all, that's all. I'm clearly know where my position in practically everyone's perspective. Hey, it's just a grind of sand, doesn't really if it's there or not. From now on, I'm a stranger to all of you. I've NEVER EXIST in your life. There's no memory of me. This is my last blog entry. Good luck and everything else follows.
And the world will be better for this:
That one man, scorned and covered in scars,
Still strives with his last ounce of courage,
To reach the unreachable star...
All of human wisdom is summed up with these two words: Wait and Hope.
Regards,
SY Leong
P/S: I've changed my cellphone number. And I'm not where round in Kuantan.
